Regarding the future of bigdonghthm account.I have written a lot of thread fics that I acknowledged some people love, even though I still have a hard time understanding why they love what I made. This stems from self-hatred and lack of confidence, so their love managed to become my source of "oh, maybe what I made was never that bad"

I am aware the long fics that I made doesn't get finished. And I'm also aware people hated that. I would be upset too, but I wouldn't complain directly because I know how it feels to be unable to finish.

Regardless, I have fully decided to abandon all my long projects as thread fics, and adapt it to something that I personally would benefit instead.
For example: comics, games, and more.
I have said this before but I have never really properly done it, didn't I I truly apologize for that. There was an elephant in the room that I was afraid of admitting.

Long projects means long inactivity, long inactivity means I'm not caught up with new trends, not caught up means I'd risk having my identity lost to time.

But why is this important Do I care about engagements yes and no.

Yes, because I'd build what I am and love myself from people who like my creations. No, I do not care about the concept of being popular. I like talking, but that is in my nature to be noisy on social media. On the contrary, I personally do not want to be perceived. I thought of deleting my account plenty of times, like I always did. But I never did, because this would mean I'm just repeating old habits again and again. I would also call myself stupid for deleting an opportunity to create something I have always wanted to people who have come to love what I'm passionate about.

But since I'm not used to this sort of engagements, regardless of how many articles I read, threads I see on Twitter cancelling creators for doing this and that, tips and tricks on how to handle social media- they all end up being a jumbled mess in my head and it sort of become the reason why I'm depressed, because it feels like I'm not a human to the crowds, and to myself.

I do not want to keep speaking on this longer because I would have to write 10k of my thoughts. Let's keep this simple.

1. I will adapt my unfinished projects to be another media that will help add to my portfolio and enhance my skill further as storyteller, visual artist, and to bring alive concepts I have in mind. This means longer time working on it but it will be in higher quality. And I get to actually have a break without having to prove myself constantly that I need a break. my works will become my internet identity instead. My real life problems will be for me and others close to me willing to hear me out instead.

2. Bigger and longer project means I will avoid social media and seeking for comments, at most I will filter it as much as I can. I have been doing it for at least a week and I'm confident it is enough for me. I may no longer respond and be as active as before.

3. I will use ko-fi as a place to drop work in progress, and seek inputs from some people that is willing to help. ko-fi is good because only three people can see my progresses and I wouldn't feel intimidated over someone seeking me to finish it. I have used ko-fi so far, and I do plan to try to find beta reader one day. Not now, I'll decide when the time comes.

With these in mind, I have decided I will move forward to where I want to be regardless of the less success that in this period of time where people prefer something quicker than polished works.

I will take a break from being in public, focus on my professional works and also what I love, rediscovering my love to other medias that have always inspired me back then by watching anime, movies, playing games, and more that did not come to mind as of now.

Thank you, I'm sorry if this is a disappointing news to some people, but this decision did not come lightly. I have calculated how this will change my mindset into a better one, which, was how I ended up in this situation to begin with. I will keep it vague, to respect myself

- me.