A desperate cry for help on loving myself IIA desperate cry for help on loving myself II

I'm nothing but a shell of what was once filled with happiness. I have felt happiness and have felt my fair shair of love in my life yet now I'm uncertain of the unknown path ahead, that love and happiness wavered and turned to uncertainty.

What am I going to do with my life I'm not sure. Am I fine with living a life without structure People say live life with structure and time. Follow what others do, even so I felt confused. This concept is nothing but a construct to let people be slaves to society. Yet why do I feel lost without a structure that people have placed on me.

Why do I feel weak when my yearning to be loved and cared just ends up in a void Why won't life just give me a good answer of the future then I don't have to worry much..

Dying is like a rock but living is the hammer destroying the rock. Living hurts harder than dying yet the effort you put into dying will lose it's meaning in the first place then what's the point of hitting a rock with a hammer

What's the point of this and that when existence is just there. You exist just because and isn't that enough to be worthy of love Why do I have to work so hard to love myself when I can already do that just by existing

Validation is nothing but worthless chase of self projecting yourself the desire to be noticed and loved yet why can't you give yourself validation.

No one will comfort yourself like the way others do. No one is responsible for your own way of existence because your existence in itself is just as unique. No one will understand it.

Put down those scissors and rope. You won't find an easy end. If you hurt yourself then those around you will notice, it will give them nothing but pain. Don't let a tiny hiccup into your journey to ruin your progress.

It's okay to build a wall around yourself because you'll learn to rely on yourself more than others rely on you. The one who is crying for help is you, your own pain and suffering is only you, no one will understand why your tears feel bitter yet sweet.